Saturday, December 31, 2005

Just A Girl. Just A Boy.

Could you be different? I am desperatly trying to recall if I have felt this way before.
She sees you around, she does. She talks to you, and wants to hear your voice. She sees pictures but they are not enough, the real thing is nothing in comparison. I remember when you caught my eye and when I first got to touch. She wanted you to know she knew who you were, two lost souls thinking the oneknows nothing about the other. We saw each other, that is for sure. The first conversation, it all felt pure. She remembers the time, you were the first, to actually leave her speechless, literally taking her breath away. Such sweet words had escaped her ears before she met you. She turns cherry blossom red as the colour of your words smears on her face. She got in the game for just a play, but fell down hard. Her heart is on, her heart is off. But for sure it can not be broken again, for a broken heart once never truely heals. She wishes you could call her, she wishes to hear your voice, she wishes she could see you or feel you at the most. Going to sleep thinking about you, I hear the voices in my head. They scream do not be foolish, but yet I go ahead. I am aware of my circumstance, I am afraid all the same. But yet I long to continue on and give my heart its claim. He makes her dizzy as she waits for him, and wants to see him again. She waits until dawn breaks and until the sun sets. She begs for advice in hope for a new discovery. She wonders if its a misunderstanding and truely it might be. She knows that deep down the feeling is there, but nothing can be perfect, not for her, not for me, not now, not here, not there, not anywhere.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Alternate Universe-- Bring it

I looked for a PERFECT person
To be everything I said
Until I realised
he only existed in my head.
I searched for ideals,
but they did not exist
I could definatly feel it
by the way he kissed.
I went looking for nothing,
but stumbled upon him
he's nothing i would expect,
thoughts pressured into a whim.
Doesn't fit my typical standard,
but he is so much more,
perfection in its own way,
makes my heart sore.
Cant you see you're getting the best of me?
Cant you tell I'm backing away?
Telling myself to believe it's not true.
That these feelings just can't stay.
So bring on the heartache,
how can it exist if love was never there,
Don't want to fall again,
Just because you really dont care.
I feel like im falling, with you watching,
Show me YOUR heart and I'll do the catching.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005


It was fun today, no one knew what it was however. Butttt i did bake cookies, and drink cider and attempt to burn a yule log, but my mom stopped that. Sunset was at 4:30 today!! ahh shorters day of the year whatsup!!
So it's like pitch black now and its 9:37 buttttt its a celebration of light returning!! so ive got mi candles burning wishing to Isis that the light will come back quick. I thanked the godess, i thanked my parents, i thanked mother nature for a wonderful not really terrible winter, and i thanked the diety for the returning light and soon spring!
I also requested that people in general be more open to love, and in all fairity to make me more open to opinion and knowledge.
As ms. sollllomen used to say " Its free education baby, you better take it"
Twas a good day.
Now off to studying, and cookie eating.
I was a good person today.
And i made a friend.

Blessed Be, and enlightment.

Thursday, December 15, 2005


Words don't even to begin to describe...

the fucking amount of shit that is pushing me one step closer to jump off my 9th floor fucking balcony. What, did you block me? Does it make you feel happy? Just go on out, and tell me straight up. Lets go to the fucking movies, if you don't want to. Say "No, Mo, I don't want to go" You say your fucking depressed. Poser. You're just trying to be depressed cause you're a fucking emo. Seriously? What the fuck is so hard about saying "No". You've pissed the shit out of me. I have literally pissed my shit, my green peanut filled shit, out of my eureathra (sp?). You've about pulled the last string. I'm not going to let some fat whiney bitch kick me around and see how the fuck it feels. I'm not your lab rat. Go fuck your self. You're immature, I'm going to leave it at that. (No, it's not only you that is pissing me off right now -- It's the fucking world. Fuck it. Fuck you. Thanks.)
P.S: Die in a hole, so you won't be found.
P.P.S: Thank you for letting me release my anger on you.

- moody

This was my first edition of hate mail for no apparent reason, it amuses me , rather than implys hatred and certain does not install fear in me. Thanks buddy, it made me laugh my ass off... more emails to come.

ooh oooohh

)\/( ()())Y ---> 1 Exam Down, 6 to go. says:
Ok, Sarcastic is easily pronounced
)\/( ()())Y ---> 1 Exam Down, 6 to go. says:
You fat whore.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

I Fought the Law and I Won / I am the law So i Won

Efficiency and progress is ours once more
Now that we have the neutron bomb
It’s nice and quick and clean and gets things done
Away with excess enemy
But no less value to property
No sense in war but perfect sense at home
The sun beams down on a brand new day
No more welfare tax to pay
Unsightly slums gone up in flashing light
Jobless millions whisked away
At last we have more room to play
All systems go to kill the poor tonight
Behold the sparkle of champagne
The crime rate’s gone
Feel free again
O’ life’s a dream with you, miss lily white
Jane fonda on the screen today
Convinced the liberals it’s okay
So let’s get dressed and dance away the night
/ You Know..Some People These Days..Where do they Turn around and pull These Ideas on You? You just Gotta shrug it Off and have Yourself a Laugh./

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Abortion can Be like Giving Birth

Here is the woman with black blood in her veins.
To love her mistake, gives her strain.
Walking in shoes she cannot fill.
Her mistake makes her ill.
The apple does not fall far from the tree.
She can look, but she does not see.
And if her mistake were to die.
Would a tear drop leave her eye?

Sunday, December 04, 2005

I Wanna Run with Reckless Emotion

This weekend was quite the adventure that started off with going to a friend's house to bake some "gingerbread" holiday men..more like clumps they were, but alright. It started off with a travel to a supposed, non-existant Food Basics, in the snow. There, craziness occured in the aisles, and on the way home ( being cheap as we are) we carried everything home in a cradoard box.. yumm hobo style. After singing a rendition of Janie's Got a Gun spontaneously, and running like we were paranoid ladies, we made it back, and began putting the ingrediants together. Warning to those that have weak hearts, stay the fuck away from a rat poison called Ground cloves, or something or another. It had the sickening, complex yet playful aroma of that of heated garbage. The scent was soo strong we thought it could not get worse. How cruel God is.. We realised this when we opened the Molasses and Ginger. For those of you unsure of how to pronounce this : Molasses : (mOh-la-suhs) and Ginger: (dat-sfuckin-NAS-tee)
After leaving this contraption to chill for an hour in the fridge, we came back and baked it at about 11 pm. They took surprisingly only 8 minutes to bake, and grew to a fair size.
First Bite: Eww.
Second Bite: Hm..
Third Bite: It's bad but an aquired flavour
Fourth Bite: Its bad but I can't stop eating it.
..And so on until I realised I couldn't take pictures because I had eaten all the ones I took home.
All in all, they were pretty disgustingly good. And then I went home and watched Full Metal Jacket by my new lover Stanley Kubrick.. AMAZING!
Da Nang Hooker: "Hey, you got girlfriend Vietnam? Me so horny. Me love you long time. "
LMFAO this was later turned into a song by 2LiveCrew called " Me so Horny" Good tribute man!
OMG Private Eightball: "Hey, what the mother fuck?" ( Tee hee so im not the only one that says that)

**********************The Next Night **********************

We voyaged to Finch, took a subway to Queen, and waited at a bus stop freezing our asses off. Then decided to hail a cab, and took the 5$ CAD Taxi down to Hooters.
"Do you mind if I smoke, *looks down at huge NO SMOKING sign* .. oh I guess you do" lmfao
"Man, you've got the hottest mom ever!"
" Hey, you should watch out for these girls, they're gunna be naughty."
"Come back for a job here when you are 19.. no wait make that 18."
Good times at Hooters, drunk collage boys, crazy uniforms, singing on the subway beside guys that smelt like farm animals, dancing on the subway, falling in the subway, buying my Hooters scrunchie, and if I learned anything, it is that TWISTED SISTER RULES... and when you run off a subway to get away from stalker boys, you don't run back onto the SAME car, you run onto the one INFRONT of it!